It has been 3 days since my last anti anxiety med, so I feel that this is a good thing. The un restful nights continue. Went to sleep at about 10pm woke up at 1230, asleep at 1, then up at 315. I was awake mostly until getting up at 415 to go jogging.
The mind got stuck in a depressive loop of all my failures in my MR, then it skipped to my failures in career, and life. I even felt sorry for WAW having to put up with me. Then the mind raced to all the things I need to get accomplished, and all of the obstacles, then I hit a low for self confidence. What a ride the mind took all morning.
I was also feeling very exhausted throughout the day. I know this played a big part of the mind vacuum or maybe the mind vacuum was the reason for the exhaustion?
Either way the mind was cloudy and my energy level was almost non existent.
Thank goodness for the end of the work day and the opportunity to pick up my d's and spend the evening with them. I received a text from WAW telling me to pick up d5 at her home and asking if she could have d5 on Sunday for Mother's Day.
This evening was wonderful. We had dinner, did some homework, did some hula hooping, watched the Minions and said a prayer before bed.
These are the nights that recharge my battery and while I feel tired right now, my mind feels some confidence that I can do this and accomplish some other things as well.
I am extremely grateful for the lil angels that are my daughters.
Sleep tight everyone, as tomorrow is a new day, with new challenges and new opportunities.
Me 46 Former W 46 D19 D7 BD Feb 2016 WAW moves out 4/16/16 D final 6/1/2017
It's time for me to start changin' the way I look at the world......and at myself. ~James Howlett aka Wolverine
