14 days of sheer hell STILL continues

[DDJ]

In terms of baby steps, I think I'll wing it until I can see real objectives coming to the fore. Going to be more efficient than effective for now. I realise that I love being out and watching live sport. Just came from a 7's rugby tournament. Was nice getting lost next to the pitch.

I met a doctor who was there to watch her boyfriend referee. It was so refreshing to meet someone that was so in awe of someone else. She even said "that's my heart out there on the field." it gives me belief that there is love after D.

My WW is drinking with her always wayward sister, even though she's on meds. I guess everything is an opportunity to rebel. Im with my son at my mother, don't want him around liquor anymore. I always used to complain about my drunk wife putting my son to sleep. Never figured that she didn't have to - I could rather. So coming home in time to put him straight to sleep so that he does not have to be with her.

I'm seeing every interaction with my WW as a chance to detach, validate, affirm or lose control. It really helps me, cos I gotta figure out which one is best.

Oh, and sandi, my old lady / neighbour living with me is getting way too touchy, I think I'll report her to the cops.