Doing better....Oh wait

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I appreciate everyone stopping by and kind words.


Am i excited and happy, yes and no.

I am glad we could spend time together. the next day we spent a little more together as well, but there are still some signs that she is still in her fog.

The following day i had mixed feelings from her. She seemed happy then she seemed like she didnt want tme around.

I know she is still wrapped up in her own world and this will also be a long haul if anything comes from it.

I could tell when we had to deal with something with kids and schedule for me to get them that cut into her time to go and do what ever she wanted she quickly went back to her selfish self.

I still get the feeling she is willing to do things as a family when she has the kids and willing to have me around when she is scheduled with the kids, but when she is on her own she wants that her time and we seem to be forgotten.

I am trying not to over look the positive and be glad we are making some strides, but i also am trying to make sure I am not expecting a whole lot yet at this point.


I guess if i can say anything that I need to fall back a bit, i dont want to go dim again, but i need to not initiate things as much right now and see where she stands with everything.

I do know when i was leaving the other evening my daughter was sneaking around trying to watch.

I asked here what she was doing yesterday and she said she told my W to give me a hug and kiss when i left! That little girl!
She said W just kind of gave her a noise and a "i dont know"

anyway, trying to put mind elsewhere as difficult as it is!