14 days of sheer hell STILL continues

[DDJ]

I don't think that I can break those down into smaller things. I already am doing everything at the same time. If I state, no checking tracker - achieved. No starting convos - achieved. I will not get drawn into an argument - achieved. I will not satisfy my WW sexually - achieved.

I'm losing control, understanding boundaries, improving myself through disciplining my son and seeing what I've done wrong all these years. In terms of appreciating the little things, well thats probably me affirming and validating my WW. Cos I definitely never appreciated the small things she did.

So it's a very long road ahead. Many months but I know if I do the small things that it will make the big difference that I need in my life.