Hi MLeigh, it sounds as though you have reached a new phase in your situation. Over time, we come to think we have let go and then we let go some more and realise we didn't really let go before.

What you said about your H being a good man and everyone would agree resonated with me. My H was also a lovely guy and that does make it harder to let go.

I'm glad you are due to see an IC see again and hope that will bring you some further peace and clarity....plus sounds like you have some great GAL plans coming up.

Take care xx

T 13 M 7
Me 48 H 46
SS 15
BD 7.14 PA
D final 5.16 (H filed)

We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus