I can so totally relate to your last statement. I miss my H, too. He disappeared in December. The WH has made a few appearances, but he's really nothing like H.

I mentioned to my grief counselor that I feel like my real H has died sometimes, and she suggested that perhaps we should have a funeral for him. She wasn't kidding.

I'm glad your shaking was better today. Mine was pretty bad. I took the doubled beta blocker dose again and I still was jittery. Then I went to see a really suspenseful movie (not at all scary) and the shaking got even worse. So weird.

Pencil smiles!!!

H: 44, Me: 45
Married: 20 y Together: 25 y
no kids
Walk away: 12/15
Asked for temp separation 12/25/15
PA confirmed 3/16 (apparently neither the first, nor the last PA he has had)
H filed for D 5/16