14 days of sheer hell STILL continues

[DDJ]

Ok, she's finally left. I believe in serendipity. I believe in karma.
If she never went out on Fri with her best friends boyfriend, she would not have met her best friends brother and his crew; and she would not have gone out tonight again. Those are things of chance that cannot be ignored.
As for karma, when she was in the other city, she was bitten by a spider. Its 5 weeks and the bacteria is still in her blood. The doc gave her 40 days worth of antibiotics, so she can't drink for 40 days.

Ultimately, tonight is the night that my WW has chosen her single life for the last time with me as her H.

I NEED TO BE STRONG.
I NEED TO FOCUS ON ME.

My tummy is not doing too bad, alot less anxious. It is really all in the head, for her and I. Going to meditate on the Detachment thread until i know it all off by heart, so that i can repeat it when i awake - should help put me to sleep later - LOL.

One thing, with OM 1 clearly out of the pic, I know she's not cheated yet and i don't know when OM 2 will / has already started, to help my detachment, should i act as though she did cheat???? Although I think it will make me cold, it may help me detach more.