I know what you mean about the what if's. Those thoughts have plagued me since the BD.
I know they are not productive thoughts as they trap us in the past. My goal is to acknowledge the thought and let it pass promptly as I get really down if I let it play out in my mind to long.
Hang in there my friend you have come a long ways and there is still many great things in store for you if you stay on a good path looking towards a bright future.
Me 46 Former W 46 D19 D7 BD Feb 2016 WAW moves out 4/16/16 D final 6/1/2017
It's time for me to start changin' the way I look at the world......and at myself. ~James Howlett aka Wolverine