I'm trying to lose control of her, but she reels me in. We were at a family function and she was all lovey dovey in front of my family. Like we were a real couple, but for me it felt really wrong. She was continuing the facade that she had for the previous few months before BD.

Nothing in my plans to improve myself has changed.im at my bros place watching soccer. Never done that before, S is playing with his cousins, whilst WW is at home cleaning.

I have to revert to treating her like she wants out and distancing again. I actually enjoy the distancing. Gives me time to think.

Just cos things are going right, doesn't mean that they were always wrong.