I am so sorry to hear this. I feel you about the PTSD part. Nobody who hasnt experienced it will ever understand it.
The thing about abuse is that if there isn't a physical cut or a bruise, it's hard to justify why you're feeling hurt and frightened. And when you find it hard to justify, you feel kinda silly to even try. So you talk yourself out of it. You convince yourself it's you?
Abuse, physical or not, does terrible things to people. But you're a survivor, a gorgeous lady with class.
Once again, (((V)))
You can call me Dory/ Grl.
As a wise fish once sang,"Just keep swimming!"
It's no use to go back to yesterday because I was a different person then.
