Lonely Hearts Club V

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I'm sorry Rouky. I haven't checked on you in a couple of days. I never stop thinking of you though. I am doing great and I feel fantastic. I am seeing things very clearly now and the farther I get from STBXW the happier I get. I hope that you can get to this point as well and will realize that your husband having an affair has absolutely nothing to do with you. You could not have kept him from straying if you had hung the moon. He like my wife and so many others on this site had something wrong in their head and didn't have the same morals that we have. The world has changed so much in the sixteen years that I was involved with my wife and it is pretty exciting. There are tons of really good people out there and it has never been so easy to connect with them.

While I still have many tough moments/days I am very thankful that she is now in my rear view mirror. You will find this too that the healthier you get the crazier everyone else will seem. At this point I have a little pity for my ex as she is lost in a fog and will probably never escape it. There are severe mental health issues in here family including spectrum disorder and she probably cannot help that she does not have empathy or an ability to connect emotionally to others. At any rate it is someone else's problem now. My son is doing so much better and now sleeps in his own bed. I am certain that he needed to see me physically recovering from my cancer. He still worries about me but seems to feel much better about it.

I love you Rouky and I thank God that he sent you to me during this and I promise that I will never abandon you. Until the day that we share a glass and you get to try my homemade Maple syrup I will be here praying for you and hoping that you can find peace. Take care of yourself girl! Mark