Wife wants to separate at end of school year # 2

[Bhuda1]

I am interested in her day. I have to hold back so many times in initiating conversation because I am doing my best to do what is not natural for me. If I understand the divorce busting technique of not pursuing by asking too many questions, I want my wife to initiate conversation for a change. This is part of my 180.

You ask if I am a part of my children's day. To answer your question. Absolutely. I am the first person they see every morning. I wake them up, get them ready for school, prepare their lunches. I am usually home before my wife. I prepare their dinner most days, help them with their homework, drive them to all their sports, friend's houses, I coach their sports teams,

When they need me, I am there. When they don't need me I am there. I adjust my schedule to suit them. They call me first to ask permission for most activities such as a sleep over. I usually reply that I will discuss with their mother first. Since they were infants, I have been the one who picks them up at the end of the day.

I am proud of my boys and who they have become. The best job I have ever excelled at is being a father.

I have pretty much given up golf. In the last four years I am lucky to have played 10 times. Why? It takes too much time away from the most important thing in my life and that is family.

I made mistakes. My wife and I lacked communication. I see that. I know what needs to be changed and my transformation of family and spouse first has been ongoing since we were married. I needed my time away. I have been so consumed with being a good husband and father, that I gave up Having my own life. My life revolved around my family. I do not regret it it all.

I do know that I made mistakes. Choices were made without consulting my wife. Choices were made without asking for approval from my wife, and she told me she was ok with my decisions only to find out recently that If I cared, I would have not proceeded with my plans. I guess I have to be a friggin mind reader as well.

Looking back, I tried and I failed in her eyes. Damned if I do , damned if I don't.