I guess I do put a lot of the blame on my shoulders. While I realize that her issues in some part created - or heck, maybe even totally - this monster, there is some part of me that will always ask what I could have done.
It is my hope that she will accept my terms and changes, but I fear this is headed to court. Honestly, part of me feels guilty about this hell that is about to be unleashed. I am having a hard time removing personal feelings and treating this as a business type experience. And there is still the hurt and shock that she is running full steam ahead into D.
I'm trying to keep my head up but all I see are clouds. I wish this nightmare would go away! But, it won't. I'm all about my kids and always have been.
What is this freakin hold she still has on me?
There are moments in this life when you are so confident in the rightness of your actions, that not even for a second do you consider the option that you might be wrong.
