finding things tough again and finding it hard to detach. I'm keeping up NC as best I can with kids. But struggling with the sense of pointlessness this whole sitch is.
Feeling like giving up, and other times in tears, this is after 8 months of pouring everything I have into it. Been DBing the last 2/3 months and initially it made it easier but feel myself slipping again.
Sometimes I just want to ask W what is going on and what is happening with US - it seems to me like we are just drifting further apart.
I keep getting the urge to do something, and have been through the DR book several times. However I can't see much I can change about the situation/interactions without slipping over into pursuing.
How will I know if things are getting better? This really is killing me at the moment and I just want the whole thing to end.
M 10, T 18 M: 36, W: 35, D: 8, S: 6 EA: Oct 12 ILYBINILWY: Jan 15 BD: Aug 15 Separated: Sep 15 Miss you: Jun 16 Aug 16: Dating (!) Oct 16: Selfishness returns... currently: disgusted
