Lots of passion there, I think.you should pursue it much more.
You said football was your life before school, do you still enjoy it. I know you were playing soccer also, maybe that group or team wasn't a good fit or maybe it is, idk. Can look into what else is available in your area. Meetup groups are listed online and I'm sure you could find something there relating to racing or football/soccer since the weather is getting nicer.
Don't go out to find something to take your mind off your W, that's not the goal. Go out and find something you enjoy because it's good for you and the rest will fall into place later.
Accept what is, let go of what was, and have faith in what will be