I still like posting on forums because of the journaling aspect! Slow pace, and time it allows me to absorb and reread and reread. Of course I lied about certain logistics as well.
I have been beating my self up a lot less and am in what I believe is a true detachment... Not mad at husband, and I don't care if he is with other woman. I just want to live my life at this point. Have been reflecting on our relationship in a detached way as well. Although I do feel bad for what my son will be missing. I am also preparing for the upcoming frusturations of navigating through the legal process. Not looking forward to that.
