You are not past the anger phase completely, it will come back up. It's not linear and we all cycle through each stage many, many times.

"I was into auto racing for three years before I got married. Road track entry level stuff."

Speak more about this. It is still a passion, can you get back into it, what did you love about it? Do a full post only on this. And try to go 3 days posting about you without mentioning W at all.

Every single post of yours is listing out every action W does, how is that helping you right now? I did the same and know it's just keeping your mind 100% focused on W.

What matters most is you finding who your are, finding a passion in life instead of just a temporary distraction, learning about yourself and growing, getting out of your comfort zone to do these things, etc.

Self help books can also help you learn the issues about yourself (what have you read so far?)but you will need to get out of your head and comfort zone and find something that really makes you feel alive. The problems your facing now are all on you, not W. You and you alone are responsible for how your life turns out and if you're happy. So I ask, are you happy right now with who you are? What needs to be different to make that answer a yes


Accept what is, let go of what was, and have faith in what will be