Hi Mel, That was very brave and strong of you and I'm proud of you for taking this approach. I know it's hard to meditate right now. You can do a walking meditation where you walk and focus on breathing - just breathing. That's all you have to do today is breathe. You've taken care of all the other immediate things. Focusing on your breathing will help slow down your mind.
Again, I'm so sorry it's come to this. I do believe your H loves you. I agree with you that the probability of this A blowing up in a very short time is high. What I would not like to see is you waiting around for that to happen rather than pursuing your own GAL activities, but I think you're too determined for that.
Stay strong - we are here for you xoxoxo
M 20+ T25+ S ~15.5 (BD) BD 4/6/15 D 12/23/16
"Someone I loved once gave me A box full of darkness. It took me years to understand, That this too, was a gift." ~ Mary Oliver
