Broken, not defeated pt2

[Cherry]

So after a lovely day out with baby. I come home to a huge flower delivery from h. With a card just simply saying sorry I forgot.

My head is mashed

[Phoebe]

Wow. You are really on a roller coaster these last couple days. All I can say is stay cool and try to stay on an even keel. Try not to read too much into the flowers. Obviously it's a good sign, but don't head for the moon just yet.

Steady on. You've got this!

[Cherry]

You're right phoebe, after the past 18 months. I think the only time I will start being really happy is once I've heard the words that he wants to commit and is willing to do absolutely everything, and when I see him trying everything.

I am happy, but I'm not reading into them. They might mean something, they might mean nothing. I doubt he even knows really!

[DDJ]

Very nice Cherry, he is missing you, affirm his actions with a simple "thank you for the flowers". Read nothing else into it.

[Cherry]

Thanks ddj. That is exactly what I did. I sent a message to thank him, to which he came back with something along the lines of I told you I'm not a d*** (I have never told him he is, so they are totally his thoughts). I didn't respond to that. I left it at that. He's out tonight, I'm meeting up with one of my girls. Might even pull the valentinos out for tonight.

[DDJ]

good for you! if its any consolation, you can let him know that we all think he's a d--- anyways.

Glam it up, just for you.

[Cherry]

Haha that made me laugh ddj. He's used that line a few times, and I always say "I never said you were" then in my head I think (well to your face) I may have thought it from time to time.

Yep, I shall. Just because it'll make me feel good about myself

[Phoebe]

Good one, Cherry! I've had similar conversations and thoughts about my H.

[JksD]

As one of my fav dbers used to remind me, 'Trust but verify'.

As for the physical intimacy, if you're starting to feel resentful because of the cake-eating, then you could pull back.

Hope you're having a great day today.

[JksD]

And omg, you ppl are a reserved lot, aren't you?

Ladies and gentlemen, please dont try this at home without trained supervision.


I have told xh in the face that he was a bloody fg moralless idiot, that TP is a bloody moralless biatch, and they deserve each other.

I do wonder on hindsight why I didn't add in fg for TP. perhaps on a subconscious level I was still feeling sorry for her?

Now if that doesn't prove my track record for dynamiting bridges and putting truckloads of feet in my mouth, I don't know what would.