WAW still angry, moved out, D on the way?

[SH_]

I had a better nights rest I believe. Woke a couple of times and felt the waves of anxiety, and the worst sensation of being alone, but I fell back to sleep pretty quick both times. I am tired this morning, but it it is a different type of tired, than they type from not being able to sleep. As I feel like I could drop back off to sleep right now if I did not have to go to work. I actually recall dreams. They were about her, and may have created the anxiety, but I guess at least I was asleep enough that it was a dream state. Also I did not have cold sweats finally.

I would actually think I was going crazy if not for seeing so many others going through this.

My girls are awake and sound in good spirits so I will put on a happy face and enjoy the few minutes that I have with them this morning. I will not have d5 until Monday night. It will be the longest stretch without her and I am missing her already. Ugh... I have to stop thinking forward, stay in the moment and find some calm.

Why are mornings the worst? I have loved mornings for so long and now it takes all I have to get through them, get a hold of myself and then move through the day.

So, now to focus hard and have a PMA.

I am thankkful for the time with my d's
I am thankful for my family and the support they provide
I am thankful for the many individuals in this board, that share support with me, in spite of working through their own difficult times.

I challenge any that read this to share gratitude on their own threads as it is medicine for the heart and it does the soul good I'm difficult times.