New Couple, Same Old Story 2

[Ralph88]

I woke this morning sad about my situation. It wasn't the same type of sadness of the past though, not a self pity or world ending sadness. It was more of a general , stuff happens sadness. I am not happy about my WW actions, and take some blame for the M issues. I will however not take blame for her giving up and moving on in our M. I'm not happy about getting divorced, especially because of the position it puts the kids, but I generally am ok with not being with the W. Lines were crossed multiple times that I don't respect, and I still have thoughts of forgiveness and rebuilding but rationally understand that isn't going to happen.

I'm not gonna hate her, I won't tell her that, but I'm gonna let the love go. I deserve to reserve that love for my kids and people that don't mean me harm. My guard is up to her munipulating ways, I'm not gonna let her actions hurt me anymore. I think this is the ultimate as if feelings.

Yes the door is still cracked a little itty bitty bit, crazy I know, but it would take so much for effort for her to slide through, it is nearly impossible. But still cracked.