my thought is IC could really help you sort thru the myriad feelings you are experiencing right now. you are going thru a lot, and the support would be helpful. Have you a DB coach? it's sometimes hard to find someone pro marriage is why i ask.
Mel only you can determine what is right for you moving forward. You need to find that still, quiet place within you wherein lie your answers. Keep breathing. Do you meditate? Do something physical to get rid of the stress. Even a walk will help get that excess energy out so you can get closer to that stillness within. I'm so sorry you're going through this. xoxoxo
M 20+ T25+ S ~15.5 (BD) BD 4/6/15 D 12/23/16
"Someone I loved once gave me A box full of darkness. It took me years to understand, That this too, was a gift." ~ Mary Oliver
