Have felt better this past week in particular, haven't concerned myself with who or what W has been up to. IC has been helping me with that, allowing her the space to fix the parts I can't if she wants to. I now have the support here and IC on the same page which helps me, letting her go but from a place of love and care, allowing her to go find herself and, if need be, make mistakes without feeling the need to protect or fix things for her.
Kids did tell me some things they did and that they were with another mother and kid for a day at a medieval festival. I'm sure it was the same one we all went to last year and where we had a great time. W and I had a good day that day, and I bought her a metal belt that she looked at without her knowing. Surprised her with it later.
I do find it hard thinking of good times, even the other day I was buying some clothes and (unusual for most men, I know) I used to love going shopping with my W. Getting her to try on new clothes, just getting to look at her over and over again as she did so. Throwing her random silly items to try on, some she would and others not..
Other than that, kept busy, gym last night and watched the soccer game with a friend. Tonight I will plan some activities for this weekend with my kids as I pick them up tomorrow morning again. Still makes me shake my head that W will use them to gather info, but will wait and see if last time was a one off or not.
One thing that I remember from DR, and I think it's in relation to LRT, is there can be 3 things that happen. 1. Nothing, 2. Curiosity, 3. Overnight change of heart. I do feel that my W falls into number 2, when she was in the house she was always asking where and who I was with, now the kids are too...
Also 2 weeks and I take the kids to the Middle East for a week to visit my father, he has a small boat and has seen dolphins in the waters around him. Can't wait to give this experience to my kids, shame W doesn't want to be part of the family anymore but it's her decision. Need to keep moving onward and upward.
