Yes dream and darknes. I was apologizing to myself for not being able to focus on myself. She did say that she was not seeing OM and that she could see how she could have made me feel insecure. I spoke with her when she came home and told her that if she wants to build trust, then statements like that will not help us build a R. The basics of any R is trust, first and foremost. If there is no trust, then there is no real R.
As karma would have it, my WWs tummy was running till the early hours of the morning, like Bolt at the Olympics. I reveled in it a little, but i was sooo at peace laying next to her while she was in pain, so know that I can do this thing.
My aim from this process is to detach, remove toxic things from my life (if that includes my WW) and GAL.
Just cos things are going right, doesn't mean that they were always wrong.
