5 weeks in since she said she doesnt love me.

[Natus]

Thanks Vapo. I guess i was motivated by trying get a reaction.

Interesting that it feels easier now to detach after she made the comment about being friends. I actually feel like the M is dead, and that she is not my W. Maybe im just riding the wave of anger. Im starting to wonder if i even want her now.

I havent initiated any talk, text, whatsoever past few days.

I feel like going a step further by going out, possible around other women. Not looking to hook up or anything, just i guess want to have a life. Just realized i thought i was already in GAL but in reality its still just work (i.e i mingle with people at my gym). I dont actually go out out.

I wonder how do i bring it up? going out i mean. Do i not say anything and just do it but that would make me an a$$hole. I guess i can just say im going out with friends. Sorry if this sounds weird but for years i have always been at work, my gym or home. I dont actually go out and if i did previously it was usually for interviews and meetings etc. so this is actually new for me.