That feeling of being in a bad dream really resonates with me. I have often felt like that and wished to wake up and to have things be the way they were before. I then realized that things really $ucked the way they were. My W was at home, but there was no real communication, we lived in a sex starved M and were really quite miserable. We had become shadows of our former selves. I hate the place I'm in now, but I see the potential of what I can be and who I can become and it's kind of exciting. For me the real bad dream was the 3 years that led up to this point. I will now wake up from that dream and make a new me from the ashes of the old and if my W wants to join me, great. If she doesn't, great, someone will. I have my bad days too brother, stay strong.
