Question for Sandi or anyone who cares to answer: my WW has done some really mean and malicious things. Is the WW aware that she is being really rotten to me or is she so wrapped up in her rationalizations that she is unaware? Does she truly believe that I deserve everything I get from her? Will there ever be remorse for these things?
Does anyone want to weigh in on this?
Journaling: Did 200 more push-ups yesterday. Moved a lot of my equipment to my room so I can further minimize contact with W. Have not seen OM in a few weeks. Fewer triggers. Seeing my family over Passover helped. I am still in in-house-separation-not-yet-D-purgatory, but the less I care about W and her whereabouts, the more at peace I feel. Pretty detached these days.
Watched "Groundhog Day" with my boys. What a fantastic film. I never tire of it. There are such great life lessons in it. Here are some that I take away from it. - We can waste our days or make the most of them. For some, living the same day over and over again would be a curse, for others a blessing. It has nothing to do with the day, but rather what we do with the day. - When you are experiencing the same "day" over and over again, it is life's way of telling you that YOU need to change. - You can't force someone to like you. All you can do is work on yourself (DB principle!) - Selfish love is wanting/expecting something from your spouse. Real love is choosing to give to your spouse and making sacrifices for their happiness, and not resenting them for it. - Real pleasure and satisfaction in life comes from doing for others, not from receiving and not from physical self-gratification - certain things are inevitable (e.g. death) and all the power in the world can't change it
I talked about some of these with my Boys. They loved it!
