Broken, not defeated pt2

[Cherry]

It is frustrating because you feel neither here nor there. Sort of, last year he told me he needed to make a decision between me and ow. And right there, I kinda lost it and layed down a heavy boundary that if he chooses her over me- that's it. I will not be a friend, I will be civil for the sake of our child, but that is it. He seemed to live in this idea I would remain living with him after D.

Once he saw that look in my eyes that that would be it, he went and finished with the ow. And he was all in for months, until he flickered out.

I'm trying to, but not going to lie- even my upbeat self can't be bothered today. I feel tired of it and fairly down. I feel like I should feel these emotions and ride them out rather than bottle them.