Cherry, your H is so different than mine. My H was all out for a year, temp checked for 1-2 weeks, and now has been all in for a year. In some ways better than before because he has really worked on himself and made changes.

I cannot imagine being with him while he waffled and yo-yo'd--that must be so frustrating! ... I just can't help but think if he knew he was really losing you, and moving on, and getting NO BO-TY, NONE, and then had to stew in that fear for awhile, maybe just maybe he would do the 180. ... Have you ever dropped the rope? (and then left it on the floor for an extended period of time).

I hope you are enjoying your bday and not only thinking about him! Too bad you can't jump on another flight and disappear for a few...

-Blu

“Forgiveness liberates the soul. It removes fear. That is why it is such a powerful weapon.” – Nelson Mandela