New Couple, Same Old Story 2

[Ralph88]

My biggest mistake in this process was trusting WW, not seeing the signs, not asking questions before the BD. Then, as I began to DB, I still couldn't wrap my mind around her actually having another EA/PA. Oh well, we are supposed to trust people in our lives.

I'm in the gym less, but running almost every day now. Still not eating or sleeping as well as I should but trying. Returning to college June 1st, unless L thinks I should hold off. Reading a lot, talking to a lot of support people, IC, neighbor therapist, family... Looking for a divorce care group or men's group to join.

Spending real quality time with my Ds. They are amazing. I wish I could protect them from WW mess, but I can't. I will have to say sorry to them in the future for not being able to protect them more.

Interactions with W are at a min. I'm not pursuing. It's down to the occasional text about kids. I thinks she is finally done temp checking and munipulating. Must not feel there is any reason left to try to play games with me.

D is moving slowly, entering the discovery phase.. When the Ls ask for phone records, bank info, ect. Thought I would be excited to get closure with phone records, but am actually dreading seeing the truth of the last 12 months. It will be closure though, pain that I will need to process through.