Hi Kyh Loved your visit with the butterfly. Do you remember what kind it was?
You seem to be settling into the new routine.. that's good. Sorry I haven't really been around. Hard few days here. The good news is every day gets a little tiny bit better. Right now, just keep your focus on what's best for the kids and breathing. In time, you will figure out what you want this new phase of your life to be like. For now, just keep breathing through it.
In terms of your in laws, I know it's awkward. My mil had a heart attack last August. I decided to go to the hospital, with flowers, to see if she needed anything. I'm glad I did. She was afraid to take a shower without someone in the room in case she needed help. She also had nothing to drink, and needed some other things that only family members really would understand. My mom had two surgeries in that hospital, so I knew the routine and that they stock a refreshment area for patients where families can get snacks and drinks for patients in between meals. They would bring her food, she would be really hungry, start to eat, then they would come two minutes later and drag her off for testing. She suffers from hypoglycemia and "doesn't like to bother anyone" ... boy am I glad I was able to get her some snacks, a pitcher of water, an extra blanket, help with the shower, etc. I haven't seen her since, talked on the phone a few times. We've never been close, but she's been part of my family for more than half my life and she's my son's grandmother. So, take from that what works for you. Hope it helps.
xoxoxo keep hanging in there you are doing better than you think.
M 20+ T25+ S ~15.5 (BD) BD 4/6/15 D 12/23/16
"Someone I loved once gave me A box full of darkness. It took me years to understand, That this too, was a gift." ~ Mary Oliver