The sleep thing is a killer now. The pharmaceuticals are not having much effect for me unfortunately. And to make it worse I get up every morning drenched from cold sweats.
But I will keep at it. Meditation, exercise, maybe stay up for 3 days straight until the body has no choice. Haha.
I will keep the faith and a PMA and the cycle will get back to normal.
I am feeling anger today. She is acting so childish that when I saw her as I picked up d5 and she ignored me, but made a big deal to d5 about all the fun they will have this weekend, I just imagined a life where she did not exist briefly, before I smiled and to,d her to have a good day.
Grrrr, I just want to be at a point where I don't have to see, think or even remember her.
Alas, I know that I still love her, but the truth is, she is no longer her, except that she looks like her. But it is no longer her, I have no idea who this person is.
Well I am gonna go spend a few with d5 before bed time. She is just adorable tonight.
And I am practicing some more one minute meditations.
Me 46 Former W 46 D19 D7 BD Feb 2016 WAW moves out 4/16/16 D final 6/1/2017
It's time for me to start changin' the way I look at the world......and at myself. ~James Howlett aka Wolverine
