Of course this is hard, he has you anxious and wondering if he will leave you or not. That is no way to treat a person that you love. When people feel hurt and rejected, their self esteem takes a hit and then they cling. I just don't like the way he is handling this. Like I said, I feel he is setting you up to fail.
I think you have to really take the focus off of what his decision will be and start thinking about your own decisions. Would your happy and most confident self be okay with the way he is treating you? Are you hanging on so tight out of fear? Would it be more natural to take a big step back, create space, and rethink if you want this man? Why is it ALL up to him? Just some things to think about.
You don't have to put anything over your mouth! You can say what you want. But, you can also take a big step back and start thinking about what YOU want and deserve in an R. And my guess is that it is not to walk and eggshells and worry if someone will walk out on you.
I'm sorry things are hard right now. Something about your Hs behavior really strikes a nerve with me. I wish I could shake some sense into this fool. The grass is only greener where you water it and you deserve at a minimum that much!
-Blu
“Forgiveness liberates the soul. It removes fear. That is why it is such a powerful weapon.” – Nelson Mandela
