I have been initiating ML with H faithfully in the past couple of weeks. I've been teasing, flirting, groping, ML in the middle of the day... even gave a BJ on the weekend... and that's a first since we were dating!!!

Problem now... he has not initiated... NOT EVEN ONCE!!! Why is that??? Do I now have to do all the work of planning, initiating and 'finishing'???

I get that he has been turned down a lot in the past, and that he feels a bit apprehensive about getting turned down now, but for heavens sake... we've 'done it' more in the past two weeks than in the past 6 months... what is he waiting for????

I'm starting to wonderif perhaps he's getting sort of 'tired' of this whole thing... is it possible? Does he want me to tell him its ok to initiate, that I won't turn him down no matter what? Because that's my plan... the first time he asks, he's getting the 'full Monty'! I'm just waiting for him to ASK!!!

Is it just too much? Too soon to think he's going to feel comfortable asking again? Is he getting off on me persuing him? Should I 'hold off' now...give him a chance to ask?

I know he's loving it ! I just don't know why he's not 'looking' for it!

Oh, and the other observation I wanted to make is for all the LDs out there:

Think about sex = feeling sexy = having sex = thinking about sex..... See the pattern? Since I've been thinking about it, I've actually found my desire is increasing, and that I feel sexy again! I'm planning to get some new ligerie for our trip this weekend (planned trip out of town for conference). I can't tell you how much thinking about sex has transfered into desire for sex! I always thought it had to be in the oposite direction!!!

So, go ahead... just start thinking sexy... can't hurt!

islandgirl