14 days of sheer hell STILL continues

[DDJ]

So the Mariah Carey concert last night was awesome. I had a crush on her since her song "always be my baby". I was so detached from my WW, I did not worry if she was fine, it was all about me. We never even held hands or anything. It was such an uplifting experience. Then Mariah sang HERO, and it really struck home, the lyrics gave me renewed hope. I've added the lyrics below.

As for the R with my WW, I told her and picked up from her that she didn't want to speak about, so i'll let that go for now.

I asked her why she sent those TMs on Monday and these were her words...
"I realised that I did not want to throw away 10 years, your son was also asking about you whole the wknd and I did not want such a life for him; you must understand that i really really love you and do want to make things work".

I have realised that this lesson is more about me gaining my independence than anything else. She is the one that wanted out, but I was the one that needed out. Anyhows, we're taking it day by day so lets see what happens. My tummy is turning a little, but i think its a good turning.

@darknes, I'll have that introspection soonly, i'm procrastinating right now.

There's a hero If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid Of what you are
There's an answer If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know Will melt away

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

It's a long road When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand For you to hold
You can find love If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt Will disappear

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Lord knows Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone Tear them away
Hold on There will be tomorrow
In time You'll find the way

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you
That a hero lies in you
That a hero lies in you