You are sounding strong! I think your H might be testing you, to see if your changes are permanent.
The xh used to tell me that he could see my changes but he didn't know if they were for real. I could see his point but I also knew that he was also looking for reasons to justify his A.
Anyways, I told him that the changes were for me. And they really are.
You can call me Dory/ Grl.
As a wise fish once sang,"Just keep swimming!"
It's no use to go back to yesterday because I was a different person then.