Hi Cherry, You must be a Brit, right? I saw a 'mum', 'sorted' and 'fancy' in your posts! THank you so much for your kind words. I started reading your posts but very tired now so will have to continue tomorrow. A few people have mentioned that I am 'doing so well' but keep in mind I have not SEEN my husband for 3 weeks! So I am not having to interact with him or confront him or hear much of anything that will trigger me at the moment.
I like what you said about not taking him back too soon. I almost sent him an email this afternoon- and then decided to go for a walk and realized, hey, I don't have to do that until I'm ready and once he's back, he's back. As much as I hate the idea of the stress he is in etc. I am finally starting to think about what will be best for me! Moi, Moi, Moi!!!!! Added bonus, the longer he is away from our home, the more likely he will have opportunity to really ponder things.
He has a very intense and exhausting job and tends to live in his head anyway, so it will take him a lot longer than me to get to that place I think. Plus, I am not confused. I know what I want and now I have the amazing community and help and guidance from DR book and DB coach. He has none of these things. I can't imagine how hard it must have been when your baby was just born. You two are so young. Sounds like your H was too young to be a dad in some ways, as it's a bit immature to think he'd get the same attention from you when you just gave birth as he had beforehand. This is the benefit of being a bit older I suppose. I will catch up on your story tomorrow so I don't say anything mental here and leave you thinking I'm a total nutter. If you are not British, ignore that last line. If you are, Briliant! THANKS for your time and thoughts. obviously I watch too much BBC.
