More detachment, anxiety and the joys of limbo

[Phoebe]

Another pretty good day today. Haven't heard from H at all since his last wierd reply to me last week, so I've been totally dark. Honestly, the less I hear from him the better I am able to focus on getting myself into a better place, mentally, because I'm thinking about him so much less. I really did need the break and wish I'd just had the guts to do it sooner, like immediately after the PA came to light.

I've had a lot less shaking for the last two days, and all because the dose of my Beta-blocker is now doubled and I'm taking it in the morning. Beta-blockers work by blocking (!) the fight or flight hormone, epinephrine. For two days it's down to a minor tremor, and I can live with that.

I did some nice GAL stuff today. I saw a movie with my friend and her step mother, I got that birthday cake frosted and delivered. It was from scratch and turned out really well. Then I spent a few hours seeing with my mom, which I always enjoy - girls night!

Hope everyone had a good day.