Man otw.. I struggle with those questions constantly.
Do I want her back? I believe, that we were real close to having something really special. Our relationship was not bad and there was a lot of good there. A Lot. I think, with the things I have learned over the past 10 months, it could be better. I enjoyed being with her very much. If she would be willing to take the time to learn some of the things I learned and give it 110%, then yes, I want her back.
The second question is the harder one. She has a bad history with relationships and is impulsive. Our history together would make this hard. I am not sure how I can give 100% to a future relationship when this has happened multiple times. I think I would always be wondering when the next BD is. The close friendships we had with others and my family has been destroyed. It took me forever to repair all that damage from the last time... no one will trust her now. Which is too bad because she really is a nice person.
So the short answers are.. do I want here back... yes (though i will be OK without her ;-)..... could it ever work... I really don't know about that one.
