KGirl - new life, new stuff #2

[KGirl]

Thanks for your thoughts, y'all. I *feel* like I am happy to do things on my own and don't need someone to do them with.. like I don't really have a problem going out and visiting a park or going to a movie or whatever. It's more like, when I'm sitting at home or at work and something comes to mind and my thought is to reach for the phone and text XBF.. then I remember that's not a thing and get sad. It's moreso that I miss him re: the little day to day things and just knowing there is someone out there that you can count on even if they're not physically present with you at that time. I wonder (/wish?) when that will stop happening. I hope it doesn't take as long as it did to get over XH, that's for sure. I think it took a little over a year before I finally stopped missing XH and thinking about him on a daily basis. I have no desire to text that guy anything or wonder what he's doing.. I just want to get to that point with XBF. It's been almost 3 months since the breakup.

Mozza - yeah, I'm not doing so well with that. Despite some of his behavior (the mixed messages, couldn't hang out with me because he wanted to do laundry, etc.) it's easy to blame it on the timing or me wanting too much, than him being a bad fit. And then I keep wishing he'll come back and maybe this time I can make it different...

Online dating has proven to be extremely frustrating anyway right now. You need a thick skin to begin with and I certainly don't right now. I had gotten up the courage to finally message a bunch of guys I had been eyeing up/bookmarked, and none of them answered me. And instead I get messages from people that I have absolutely zero interest in. Ugh.