WAW still angry, moved out, D on the way?

[SH_]

Hi Phoebe,

I am definitely in on the meditation challenge with you. D17 and I purchased a recommended book for an 8 week program for this (I forget the name of it at the moment), and we planned to read chapter 1 tonight and do it.

Comparing notes with you would be great and we can support each other and have this help us out of the anxiety circle.

So in the words of the Great Barney Stinson, "Challenge Acepted!"

[Phoebe]

Awesome!!! I'm glad you're in. I love that your D17 is in, too. She really is special.

[Vanilla]

Sadhub could I ask you to check in on Lambo for me, he could do with a little of your sanity.

His WW is an alcoholic with an OM, and he lacks D17.

Frankly I think every dad needs a D17.

V

[SH_]

Hi V,

I checked in and will continue to check in on Lambo.

Yes a good D17 is a precious thing to have in these situations.

I had a good day today, started meditation with D17, had a good session with IC, and planning on a good nights rest.
I get to see D5 tomorrow and I am super excited.

Sleep well everyone. Tomorrow is a new day and new opportunities await us all.

[Vanilla]

I love the idea of meditation with D17, wise poppet, and you getting some peace and calm.

Thank you Sadhub

I prayed for you this morning

V

[SH_]

Another sleepless night. What do I need to do to get some rest? I feel a bit more calm this morning in spite of being so shakey right now, but I am afraid exhaustion may catch me if I cannot get some rest. And that will add to my anxiety and stress, I imagine.

The meditation technique of focusing on my breath helped me somewhat through the night, so the negative mind vacuum was not so intense, but the rolling anxiety was persistent.

I am going to try and stay focused in the moment today.

Thank you V for the prayers. I know that they bring me peace.

Another day, another attempt to rebuild trust in my self, my self esteem and my confidence.

[1gr8dad]

Sadhud, I read though all your threads.
Thank-you for your support on my thread. I really appreciate it.

I hate the sleepless nights. All I can recommend is meditation and working out if you can. I know you are already doing the meditation so great job, and it's so excellent D17 joins you.

I also wanted to let u know I will keep you in my prayers.

[Phoebe]

I had a few hours of laying wide awake last night, too, SadHub, and what sleep I did achieve was of the pharmaceutical variety, unfortunately.

Not being able to sleep when you are tired and most need it is so incredibly frustrating. When I first started meditating a long, long time ago, it was because of insomnia, and being able to slowly gain control of the constant thought storm did help me a lot. I won't say I've got it under control right now, as I clearly do not (!!!), but know that it really can help with the thoughts with practice.

I'll be relearning how to do it right along with you!

Wishing you a restful night's sleep.

[SH_]

Thanks 1gr8dad for checking on me.

I am really trying to get the exercise back on track. We jogged everyday for the past couple of years and I was hitting the weights before this mess. My goal is to get the jogging back on track this weekend. You are right that could help with the the sleep.

I feel caught in the loop here. Need energy to work out, but no sleep. I need to work out and help get the body to a point that it is tired so I can sleep. Ha ha. I never would have guessed that being in this situation could cause so many issues with the mental and physical well being.

Anyway, I will be hitting the meditation and working hard to get the exercise back on track.

[SH_]

Hi Phoebe!

The sleep thing is a killer now. The pharmaceuticals are not having much effect for me unfortunately. And to make it worse I get up every morning drenched from cold sweats.

But I will keep at it. Meditation, exercise, maybe stay up for 3 days straight until the body has no choice. Haha.

I will keep the faith and a PMA and the cycle will get back to normal.

I am feeling anger today. She is acting so childish that when I saw her as I picked up d5 and she ignored me, but made a big deal to d5 about all the fun they will have this weekend, I just imagined a life where she did not exist briefly, before I smiled and to,d her to have a good day.

Grrrr, I just want to be at a point where I don't have to see, think or even remember her.

Alas, I know that I still love her, but the truth is, she is no longer her, except that she looks like her. But it is no longer her, I have no idea who this person is.

Well I am gonna go spend a few with d5 before bed time. She is just adorable tonight.

And I am practicing some more one minute meditations.