A New Chapter

[Painter]

Phoebe, it's a very moving Bonnie Raitt-song, and you'd probably recognize it if you heard it:

Turn down the lights
Turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head
Lay down with me
Tell me no lies
Just hold me close, don't patronize
Don't patronize me

'Cause I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark, in these final hours
I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
'Cause I can't make you love me, if you don't

I'll close my eyes, then I won't see
The love you don't feel when you're holding me
Morning will come and I'll do what's right
Just give me till then to give up this fight
And I will give up this fight

'Cause I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark, in these final hours
I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
'Cause I can't make you love me, if you don't.

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It should come with a consumer warning... Very sad song.

I didn't like my reaction to the reiki. It's a form of healing energy work, but I had two long nightmares about H living with another woman (different women in the different dreams), and woke up feeling icky again. Almost like a setback, it was like the light and optimism I had that carried me forward, is gone, and I just feel angry and snippy. I did some visualization work to get rid of the feeling, and will continue with that throughout the day.

I will update after the job interview!