feels like i am on a rollercoaster

[collin]

The best advice I've been given on here is, do something different. Thanks to the folks on this thread I've taken up running/walking. I get to get out, put my headphones on, rock out and not worry about all the crap.

Also, like Cadet says, she gave you the gift of time. Who knows, a pause may be good. Just treat this like a break for you to work on you to be the best you that you can be.

We're all here for you and wishing you the best.