Wanted to thank you for checking in on my thread and the support. I don't have much advice to add that has not already been shared with you, but know I feel your pain as I struggle with the same challenges you mention. V says it's like a washing machine where the clothes get tangled up. Check my thread for a better description.
Anyway hang in there, I am pulling for you and want to lend my support as well as let you know that you are in my prayers.
Do something good for yourself today and force a smile even if you don't feel like it as it does help.
And hug your son, that contact and the love you have for him can provide some strength.
Me 46 Former W 46 D19 D7 BD Feb 2016 WAW moves out 4/16/16 D final 6/1/2017
It's time for me to start changin' the way I look at the world......and at myself. ~James Howlett aka Wolverine