Phase 2

[Pax_luv]

Thank you for the feedback, Esame, Sotto, and Job. I sincerely appreciate it.

The whole thing just stinks.... For all of us. When is it ok to really let go?

Anyway, one thing I've been mulling over the last few days is- Dealing with friends and the in-laws. I'm bothered by the fact that nobody knows (or even cared to ask) about my perspective on all this. H has just shared his side and I kind of became the monster/ enemy... It was all my fault in his eyes. My FIL even told my h to protect his money right when this happened. I was floored because money was the furthest thing from my mind... I was going bonkers trying to save us. To this day, I'm so unbelievably hurt by their actions. It's just another thing that I think of as I continue to let go. The anger helps with detachment.

I can't help but wonder if anyone has thought he was being irrational in his decisions or if they were just totally supportive of him and compassionate for him and this hard time in his life.

No point in mind reading... But man it's still hard keeping my mouth shut. Every now and again, I get he urge to reach out to my niece and nephew who I love and just tell them that It wasn't my decision to leave this marriage.
I don't have an urge to share the gory details, but I do want people to know that I was fighting... And I continued to fight for months and months and months. Just seems like no one will ever know. It's the ultimate test of humility, I guess.