You are not disappointing anyone. You are getting support from those that see the small steps to getting you back on track. I know the challenge as you and I have cheered each other on as our mental and physical beings are taking on actions of there own. The advice for eating, resting and mental excercises will help us heal. I know you know that and I know you are giving everything you got, but the challenge remains.
Let's look at like like physical therapy for an accident victim that may have lost the use of their legs. The physical therapy is extremely painful and feels almost impossible to do and it is easier to not give to much effort or feel badly when we can't get through the session. But the only one we are disappointing is ourselves if we do not get back up and try.
You have given so much through all of this, and you are being cheered on by the support group of lawyers, therapists,friends and family. But use their feedback and advice to fire yourself up to do the difficult things, because you know in your heart it will only make you stronger.
Find that white anger that V always talks about and that will drive you more than feelings of guilt for disappointing someone because you have not followed through on what they ask of you.
I have you in my prayers, I know first hand some of what you are going through and I still have a lump from the 2x4 you gave me, so I want to return the favor
Finish this day strong with some nourishment ,exercise, meditation, and find something to give you a good laugh.
Some rainbow hugs for you as well as I know those always give me a little boost and I want you to feel the same boost to do what will heal you. ((((Phoebe))))
Me 46 Former W 46 D19 D7 BD Feb 2016 WAW moves out 4/16/16 D final 6/1/2017
It's time for me to start changin' the way I look at the world......and at myself. ~James Howlett aka Wolverine
