Jeep, I live with those same thoughts constantly, but you need to remember: At least 50% of the fault is hers. Nothing is 100% yours. Actually, if you are unemployed wouldn't it be to your advantage to file for D now, rather than after you get a job? Check with your L but your WW may be required to pay you child and spousal (if you have it in your state) support.
Me-LBH, 48 Spouse-WW, 48 Married for 19 years Son, 12 BD #1 - November 1998 (EA 7 months after wedding) BD #2 - November 2015 (same XBF EA) WW filed D February 2016 WW moved out April 2016