Really, really struggled this weekend and today. I don't understand why I keep flu using on him! I haven't seen him physically for a week but spoke to him through the door! Why am I giving him so much I importance. Why I thinking back about all the things that I could have done but didn't because I didn't know about this website. I think that when I kicked him out and before he went back to OW I had a window to save my M, but didn't have the tools. Now I'm regretting everything g I have not done. I remember him telling me that I'll regret my behaviour! What if OW is really his soul mate? Have I wasted 11 years of my life? I'm struggling with my kids too. They keep pushing my buttons and being very challenging.
I think H wasn't in MLC, OW is just person who has helped him to detach from me as he couldn't leave his second family like he did the first time! I don't know where to go,what to do I'm pretty lost :-(
