I'm glad you got some sleep, SadHub. You deserved a good rest.

Sorry, though, that the day had so many awkward and trying moments. You are doing really well when interacting with your W. It is impressive that you are able to be so controlled while under so much pressure and such constant contact.

NC is no picnic, but I get to fall apart and pull myself back together out of sight, so to speak. I don't know how I'd manage if I had to see H all the time.

I can completely relate to your thoughts about half of your life involving your spouse. I struggle with that, as well. I'm 45 and have lived with my H since I was 19, so he is part of almost every single memory of my adult life. I don't know what to do with that now.

I hope tomorrow brings you peace.

H: 44, Me: 45
Married: 20 y Together: 25 y
no kids
Walk away: 12/15
Asked for temp separation 12/25/15
PA confirmed 3/16 (apparently neither the first, nor the last PA he has had)
H filed for D 5/16