Yeah I really don't want to be in the same house as the WW but have no choice. Neither of us are in a position to move out right now. When I went to my L she said I should let her do the dirty work since she wanted the seperation/divorce. Which I agreed may slow things down so that hopefully she thinks about what she is doing. Apparently that was a bad idea. I have to live in this limbo hell hole and its letting her eat cake as well in a sense. I see all this now. Oh well she is looking into an appraisal of the house and gonna see if she can get a line a credit to buy me out. I think that will bury her financially but that'll be her problem not mine. Unless OM is truly a white knight and moves in. Lol. I hope she gets it. I just want out.
Today my S had Testing for his belt in taekwondo and W was gonna meet us there. She worked a night shift so she got up and got ready after we left. When she arrived. She looked fantastic. Ugh I hated that so much. I know I'm truly attached still. I was Doing so well cause we were not seeing each other due to schedules and what not. That's always been the way. Probably the reason why we are in is mess. I digrese though. I truly tried to not talk to her and didn't make eye contact, maybe said a couple words that needed to be said about kids. Then for the rest of today I felt like [censored] again. I can see how being around your W can trigger these emotions. Now tonight she's off with her friends while I stay home with the kids. My day with them and all. I wish I would get even a temp check from her. It seems like she has moved on completely. I read all these posts about the other spouse and mine seems to not give a [censored] at all. She doesn't talk to me about anything and I don't want to initiate due to the 37 rules etc.
Me 40 W 35 Kids 2 S6 D3 T 10 yrs M 8yrs BD 11Mar16
